Archive for November, 2009

I live for myself!!!

Posted in Life - a lesson worth sitting thro' on November 29, 2009 by agnosticstallion

wonder why ..yes might b perfectly right yes I live for myself but does that mean i dont care how others live? does that mean i dont luv any one? well my luv n care for someone is wht i think i live for myself..i find myself in caring n luving ppl who matter to me….well i undesrstand if I live for  myself ppl around me live for themselves too…so if we live for each other then wherz all this goin to ????.i just see how best i can live with others living around me or whome i live for…when i live for nothing i die for smthin…ok end of it all the society n the world is fake n i cant fake in this world i  cant lie ….any one who reads my blog leave me a note…should i not live for nothing? live for nothin is being unconditional…yes i have a comfort in it n i live it ….lemme be well anywayz i hav heard it frm ppl whome i care they have said “I DONT CARE” ok with it itz hit me hard ….not that all of thm mean the “I DONT CARE” but when it comes to living ppl start caring for themselves only right???? thatz u r maturity thtz u r grownup world thtz maturity n luv for you…why did ppl say “I DONT CARE” coz the situation demanded it so they said that…n now whn situation is different n am still the same I LIVE FOR MYSEFL 🙂 i dont care or not care for ppl based on situations…itz either that i care or i dont…so ppl whome i care for remember i care wether u like it or not …n ppl i dont care for remember i wont care for you wehter you want it or not …thtz how i am thatz the kinov kid i am ….try gettin the kid off the arms of its mother all it would do is cry n make sure itz back in its mothers arms…play around with the kid for a while but it goes back to its mom ….so all you can do is play around with me …but am goin back to my raw self…dont play around with me too much ….dont remote around with my emotions the more you play the more i rebel….am totally raw am unbaked i dont wanan b baked in the bad bad grownups world  i dont wanna lie i dont wanna fake….i am what i am ..if in yiu r grown up world truth is difficult to knw what is in store for   you only the truth …for me truth is not difficult to accept itz a lie wich i cant accept if i trie to lie i get a guilt n i cant live with a guilt…thtz wher i live for myself…..


dont kill the innocence of a child

Posted in Life - a lesson worth sitting thro' on November 29, 2009 by agnosticstallion


the sweet innocence in every action of a lil kid (Toddler) is the same innocence in the beauty found in a truthful eye ..just that the other eye looking into it should have the eye to see it. innocence of a kid is so obvious but why not the truth in the eye? why do we all growup to live and grow thro situations? why cant we be what we are n feel what we want to? why? yes a kid gets to be innocent in all situations..n all like it that way but y cant we see the kid in ourselves…do you knw why real love has not been understood? i feel itz coz we all know that mother’s luv  is the purest unconditional love ..but all of us are mothers of a kid inside us whome we need to love unconditionally n the ppl who respect it or help us realize the kid inside us is the dad…now can we look at ait this way …I wanna be unconditional on myself…and not expect anythin n can you not expect anything from me n gimme the mother luv tht the kid inside me wants …coz i dont care about myself i am conditional to myself i cant be the kid i wanna b only coz i am not allowed to by the fathers of the kid who made me realize that ther is a kid inside i know therz a kid n i am left to get unconditional…but …ok a lil confused here to b frank…just need that lap of comfort level where the kid can sleep peacefully with the stroking hand on the forehead puttin him to sleep this should not be done by a grownup..i dont wanna b in a grownup world ..the world of the grownups is a selfish world..the matured grown ups stink with selfishness and glamor n lies n cowardness n what not…i prefer being the kid n bein on the lap of a kid…i dont want respect i want innocence n truthfulness n uncondtional kids with me…yes i often get into fights and thro tantrums well sorry if it affects the grown up world..but i was made to realize i have a kid within..dont kids throw tantrums..? please dont ask me to grow up..i am a kid let me be a kid …lemme die a kid …in the way if u think the kid needs comfort become a kid n put me on your lap…please dont worry that i am not gonna fit into the grownups world the one you call “Society” …look around you also look into u r self…if u killed the kid in you n have grown up..your society stinks ….relegion, cast creed violence inobidience disrespect what not…sit back n think doesnt it stink..if you think it doesnt then congrats 🙂 you are a grown up be happy …i prefer bein the kid n dont care for me coz am not gonna fit into your world n dont ask me to you live in your world n let me live in mine…am happy if you wanna join my world…coz in my world itz the present it is heaven is NOW HERE in your grownup world heven is nowhere you will be searchin …look back the kid inside you has the heaven ….start living in heaven n die everyday to see heaven…that when u start living…live for nothing die for smthing…BUT TO THE WHOLE SOCIETY wich u claim yourself to be plz plz plz “DONT KILL THE INNOCENCE OF THE KID” lemme be lemme be lemme be …call me foolish call me impractical call me anti social call me names i dont mind dont kill the kid in me request you plz..lemme be myself